I wish I can be brave enough to tell everything I want to say, especially when I’m having an argument with someone. I hate myself for being such a pussy. For not so great at handling my emotions. When I get angry, instead of shouting or yelling, I cry. It really sucks because I end up looking weak and always lose at fighting. I’m such a crybaby.
I just can’t usderstand some people
Nobody else knows the real me, but just myself. I never shared the whole me to anyone else because they might hate me if they will know.
This is my favorite episode of noragami :) I cried the moment when Yukine is confessing his sins from the bottom of his heart. I mean, he really did regret all the things he did. And then, when Yato is thinking about the things that hiyori did to save them both, he realized that, without her, they could have died out there. I love the moment when hiyori hugged Yato and his face is so red. Gosh, I wish they’ll fall for each other. I’m so looking forward to more episodes to come :)
I’m having a really nice mood until you fucking messed up with me. I really hate you, like, shit, please stop fooling around me. Why do you have to be here anyway? Everything you do is so annoying you know? So, please, can’t you just exist somewhere else, I mean like from other country, or other planet or other universe -.- Why do you have to ruin my life like this? :(
Too many thoughts in my head, but too lazy to share.
It’s supposed to be brighter outside, but when I got there, it started raining.. it feels kinda hopeless.
I’m too happy when I change my ringtone into scary death ringtone from “One missed call” and one night, I left my phone with my cousin alone, then suddenly my phone rang and my cousin recognized the ringtone. She can’t move and can’t even speak because she was really shocked omfg.
Napapaisip ako minsan kung balang araw ba gusto kong mag asawa.
Minsan kasi pakiramdam ko ayokong mag-asawa.. parang hindi ko naman kailangang magkaron ng sarili kong pamilya kasi kahit kailan di ko naman pinangarap yun. Ang nasa isip ko lang palagi si mama, si papa tsaka yung bunso kong kapatid. Si kuya naman sigurado namang magaasawa yun eh. Ang plano ko talaga pag aaralin ko nalang bunso kong kapatid tsaka pagandahin buhay ng mga magulang ko.
Pero naisip ko din.. pano naman ako kapag tumanda na ako? sinong magmamahal at magaalaga sakin? wala akong asawa at wala din akong mga anak, alangan namang umasa ako sa kapatid kong bunso eh di naman natin alam kung anong klaseng buhay na meron sya nun pag matanda na ako. Wala akong maaasahan kasi may sariling pamilya kuya ko. Kaya ko ba maging matandang dalaga? XD Parang ayoko din ng mag-isa. Well hindi naman natin alam kung ano mangyayare sakin malay nyo marape ako tas naging single mom lang ako, O kaya may tumanan sakin, o kaya bigla akong mainlove tas bumuo kami ng pamilya. Bahala na ano?
Kung mag-aasawa man ako, naisip ko kasi dapat ngayong college ako makakahanap ng makakasama ko hanggang sa pagtanda.
Bakit kailangan habang estudyante pako tsaka ako maghahanap? eh kasi,
- Kapag nagkaboyfriend ako after ko grumaduate, baka mabulag ako sa pagmamahal at magpakasal agad ako. (maraming nangyayaring ganyan uy)
- Dahil sa dami ng taong makikilala mo sa school, Marami kang choices
- Sa apat na taon na yun malalaman mo agad kung magwowork ba relasyon nyo
- Kung hindi magwork ayun madali lang naman makahanap ng iba tsaka bata ka pa naman (syempre dipende)
- Palagi mo syang makikita
- Palaging makakausap
- Marami kang source para makilala mo siya ng masmabuti (mga kaklase niya/tropa niya)
- Masmarami pa kayong time para makilala ang isa’t isa.
Theory ko lang naman to, hindi naman to fact XD HAHA.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko.. hindi naman ako kagandahan pero mataas standards ko. Ayoko kasi yung pwede na, gusto ko yung talagang sigurado akong mamahalin ko. Kasi siya din masasaktan kung di kami sigurado sa isa’t isa. Napaka komplikado kong babae, siguro ako nadin ang pinaka mahirap mahalin. Pero malay natin.. basta bahala na.. wish ko lang maging maganda future ko, may sarili man akong pamilya o wala.
It’s been so long that it made me finally get used to it. The fact is, I have no other choice than to accept it.. even if it hurts a lot.
Tho, I know that I’m never good enough to fit in to something, I still move forward, because, why not? I mean, It’s still better to try things than look down to myself.
I can never tell if I’ll be successful someday, but I know that it’s possible if I move my ass up and try to get a little closer to my dreams everyday.
*Sees lovely couple’s photo*
*Scrolls down quickly*
I hope this will be a lucky month for me and for my family. I expect better things to happen. No problems, no worries.
With the title of my page, they told me that I should post things related to it.
“Fuck you and your promises”. There have been bitterness in my heart since when I made this as my blog’s title. I never believed in falling in love again because I felt tired thinking about love.
So yeah, eventho my blog’s title is kinda nega and disappointing, it doesn’t really matter. I can post whatever I want because it’s my own blog. It contains random things. Personal posts, sketches, anime screenshots/photos, funny things and many other shits that made me feel just want to post it. Lol. It isn’t a themed page that focuses in only one certain thing and I’m going to change the title soon anyway.